It is hard, the hardest thing ever. It is work. I am exhausted. It is humbling. I often feel I am playing a guessing game that I just can't figure out. It is frustrating, discipline is probably my weakest area....I just can't seem to know the right path to take at times, but I love it and I love my sweet girls! I feel so incredibly lucky to finally have them.
I've probably said this many times, but before I was married, I used to hate Mother's Day. They always tried to make all the women feel special that day, but all I could think about was the fact that I was not a mother and didn't know if I would ever be one. Of course, I enjoyed the part of letting my mom know how special she was and how grateful I was/am for her, but mostly I felt sorry for myself.
It's all in one's perspective. Since I've had children, I don't like to think of myself on that day, I like to just think of my mom. Most of the church talks make me feel guilty about all that I'm NOT doing. There's even this talk by Julie Beck called "Good Mother's Know" or something like that and to be honest, I hate that talk. I don't measure up.
Okay so I've typed about 5 different topics and then deleted them....just not able to express myself today,
To sum it up, I love being a mom. I love my mom. I'm thankful for all the women that have mothered me and for all the women that help mother my children.
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| Here's my Mother's Day cake for my mom. I love it. I think it turned out pretty cute! |
